Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Not Austin Allergies This Time

I wish I could say I've been traveling the world in search of adventure so that I would have an interesting reason for not writing in a while. Instead, I've been trying to get over strep (thanks, Gaby!) and mostly the side effects of the antibiotics, which seemed worse than the strep. It has been almost three weeks now.



After the second week of not feeling better, I visited a naturopathic doctor. Besides about 9 capsules of supplements I have to take with each meal, I also had to cut out wheat, dairy, sugar and orange juice (what is there to live for?). Surprisingly it has been working and I feel confident about getting on a plane for Miami tomorrow for Mother's Day weekend.

Being a workaholic, illness is very uncomfortable for me on so many levels. One major cause of stress on top of the aches and pains are the thoughts of all those things that are not getting done: client work, laundry, nutritious family meals. The list is long and I tend to punish myself for being sick. This time around, it felt comforting when Pedro assumed some maintenance duties, and powerful when I realized how life continues on without my having to make sure it is moving in the right direction. I truly believe sickness gives us a great opportunity to rethink ourselves.

I recently attended a workshop called Business the Feminine Way with
Sonya Davis. I was drawn to her emphasis on shifting to a new consciousness of following our energy and tapping into our intuition. Honoring our feminine essence means being radiant, flowing, intuitive, naturally connecting, expanded energy, attractive and magnetic. Sonya says that "When we say we don't have enough time or money, it is a sign that we are not managing our energy."

When it comes to business I have been habitually pushing forward, taking on projects I don't necessarily want to do, making sacrifices to "just get it done," and trying to accomplish multiple things I found easy in the past. Since becoming a mom, I have run against the wall of over-committing and feeling that my focus and energies are scattered. I am so frustrated at not being able to manifest the things I actually do want to create. Attending this workshop has been the first step in helping me find clarity and beginning to prioritize with a plan. I'm excited about the next few months because I have a few things brewing, stay tuned. I just adore Sonya!



That workshop also introduced me to Jesse Bloom of
Ecstatic Cuisine, who catered our dinner that night. He calls it "wildly alive catering" and features organic, locally grown food while stressing community and cultures. Jesse catered the DVD release party I hosted for Desiree Rumbaugh here in Austin on May 1st. Not only does it match the yogic principles, but every mouthful was an explosion of flavors and textures that just made you feel alive. His partner is probably giving birth at this very moment. Thanks for waiting until after our event, Lauren!



Next week Gabriel starts Montessori preschool two days a week in the mornings. He loved his classroom and teacher, and I am starting to appreciate knowing that I will have a few mornings to tend to my work while he learns and socializes. May is unfolding magically.